so this half-marathon coming up at the end of September….
I looked online yesterday and it said 56 days till race day….
and the one emotion i’m feeling right now? Scared.
I don’t know if I can do this, I don’t know if my body will let me push it that far, I missed my 6 mile training run yesterday. I planned on going, but it was storming then by the end of the day when it was cool enough outside i was just so exhasuted I wanted to rest. I was walking my family dog with my mom last night and I just came out and said it.. “I don’t think i’m going to be able to do this race”
It felt weird blurting it out and actually meaning it. I just don’t know if i can do it. The thing is, i’m scared I won’t be able to finish. I haven’t ran more than 6.5 miles ever, and in 2 months i’m supposed to run double that? I’ve been doing okay with my training schedule, but missing a few runs here and there. but the thing is… every run is hard. I haven’t felt like i’ve been improving, and for some reason it’s like i’m staying at the same level. I’m just confused.
This morning when I checked my e-mails, I came upon my daily inspiration. I signed up for daily inspiration e-mails at http://blog.dreamthisday.com/ recently and today’s fit my situation perfectly. It was like it was written for me and only me.
Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly.
– Robert F. Kennedy
A life lived in fear is a life half lived.
Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm.
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
Fall seven times, stand up eight.
– Japanese Proverb
Can you achieve your goals? You can’t reach your goal if you haven’t defined your goals. And you can’t succeed if you don’t try – and then pick yourself up and try again each time you fail.
Put your best into your life, and you will be rewarded with happiness regardless of the final score.”
Thinking about this gives me hope. If i try to run this and fail? So what? I tried right? It’s better than wishing I did it and never even attempting it. When I have a hard run, I need to pick myself back up and just do it again. I’m going to write these quotes down and keep them near to remind myself of them when it’s needed.
Do you have any advice on how to get my mental aspect of the running back? I feel sort of at a loss right now. Thank you all for your endless support. It means more than you know!